It’s a wonder I ever had a paying gig outside the home. I honestly don’t know how “working” moms do
it because I feel like my plate’s as full now as it was when I was teaching. I
do have to say I have a real issue with the terms “working mom” and “stay at home mom” because, truly, it’s all work and it’s all life – each with its requisite stressors,
expectations, grass-is-always-greener notions of how great it would be in the
others’ shoulds, er, shoes.
If you are at home, the expectations are to have a perfectly
clean, orderly, and well maintained house, run all the errands happily and in a
cute outfit no less, shop and cook like Martha Stewart, do all things kid-related
including volunteering at and participating in all school functions (and you
are definitely the mom that gets to organize the “group” projects your kids are
involved in and schlep them around for said project). And, don’t ever run out
of toilet paper! Because a good
stay-at-home mom would never do that . . . right???
For the “working moms”, the moms that get paid to do work
outside the home, the domestic expectations are much the same but less
perfection is expected, because, “Hey! They are being paid, making money,
earning for the family so cut ‘em some slack in the domestic department!” Concessions have to be made, for sure. They can’t be at every school function or
volunteer during their “free” time.
Their houses, if not cleaned by the Maid Brigade, might be a little
dusty or ill-kempt. But when you see the
“working mom” out, she is polished and dressed and IMPORTANT, people, because
she makes money. They have grown-up
conversations. Go to meetings. They are
having an impact on the world outside of the four walls of their home.
I’ve been in both places - working outside the home and
working inside the home for no pay - and
what I know is that there are trade-offs for sure in the crazy balancing act of
working and mothering and wife-ing (funny how that wife part trails in at the
end . . .). One role isn’t better than
the other. They each have stressors
(including the wife-ing), different though they may be. I think the real issue is that so many of us
are trying to do it all perfectly. And
trying to hide behind something, anything, when we can’t. Maybe it’s getting lost in “busy-ness” or
mindless internet surfing for hours on end; maybe it’s long meeting lunches
with two glasses of wine to numb the fear of not being “enough” anywhere; maybe
it’s compulsive exercise or eating or some other crazy behavior that keeps you
distracted from what’s really bothering you.
If we are lucky, and
brave, we get to a place in our lives where we make peace with where we are at any given moment, endeavor to do the very best we can with what we have and
know in that space, and LIVE fully
right there. Being as authentic as
possible as we work – outside the home – or inside the home – and trying to
find joy and peace and “enough” right there.
I think a lot about what I am bequeathing my kids – is it fear, anxiety,
and perfectionism or is it self-love, compassion, gratitude, and hope? There are so many potholes when it comes to
parenting but this one is a damn potential sinkhole and one I try to remain cognizant of
everyday. What am I teaching my children
about life, the world, and being their most authentic selves – even when it’s
scary or the outcome is unknown?
We teach by modeling.
Our words are not enough.
Blah-blah-blah, they hear. But if
you show them and if you are
courageous enough to share your mistakes as well as your triumphs, well then, I
think they may get it. These kids are
smart. So, so intuitive and sensitive
and ripe for impressing. No armor yet,
they are malleable and open to suggestion and want to please. I want them to know they can be themselves,
they can mess up, they can talk to me, that we are in this thing called life together,
that we’ve got each other’s backs.
And, whether I am working outside the home or working
inside, the role of nurturing my children’s spirits doesn’t change. I want them
to know they are whole, complete, and just right, exactly as they are. The very same thing I tell myself and try to embody as I
stay-at-home, work, live, create, parent, wife, love . . . be.
Nice, Meg... :)
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